its gotta be now...or never !

Its been 2months since my last post....and i m feeling bad, inspite of the fact that i dont even know 10people who visit my blog regularly. Maybe because the outlet of my thoughts is being slowly put to death, itna slowly and painfully that polonium ko bhi sharam aa jaaye....:)

My 5th sem exams have got over and i have joined my CAT coaching. Hard-Work, Focus and Inspiration are three things that i consider essential to performing well in any phase of life. I have squandered most(read all) opportunities that came my way during the past 2.5years, coz i was busy cribbing about something or the other. This biggest impediment to my will to do well right now is the stagnation thats constantly pulling me down. par as i they say " hausle woh hausle kya? jo sitam se toot jaaye". If i m good then the whole world would aside and gime a way....bas i have to be positive and let my actions do the talking.

Besides all this stuff, my blog seems to have taken a very grim, personal insight into the happenings of my being...or rather the non-happenings. All my posts end with inspirational songs, which are not for the readers - as i intended it to be- but for my own good.
In short, i completely acknowledge the fact that most of my posts, off late, have negative vibes attached with them,including the first half of this post. I intend to rectify it, dunno if i'll suceed.

From now on, i want to comment mostly on what i percieve of the outside world, and lesser reflections of my inside self.

And the irony is that i want to end it with another inspirational song:
"yeh honsla kaise jhuke,
yeh aarzoo kaise ruke,
manzil mushkil toh kya,
dhundhla sahil toh kya,.
tanha yeh dil toh kya...."

time to move my own cheese myself...

It has been a difficult and testing period for me since the mid-sems ended. I have learned about new flaws in my ideology but am happy to have accepted them gracefully. I fully understand that theres a great need to make an indeological shift to accomodate a wiser soul in the mortal me.
My actions have been very different from what i profess. The modest me hasnt been exposed to nature since a long time ab...this stark reality dawned upon me after a nice discussion with friends one evening, and the constant introspection due to life in general and the follies i have been committing off late.

Academic pressure needs to be taken a lot more seriously now and i dont want to be caught up in the shackles of a confused mind. My sole aim is to be as candid and honest as possible....and try and apply the theory of all the good i talk and believe in, into practical.

The new me would be a better human being in practcal not just for the sake of it, to boast infront of others....but because he/it would really feel that ways.
I know all this is being done to earn GOD's loyalty and nothing else...but if to enter GOD's good books is my driving force then let it be so...
Hope to have GOD back on my side soon.....

the song i feel like humming right now --
" allah tero naam, ishvar tero naam
sabko jag mein, sanmati de bhagwaan"

PS: i have been searching for this song unseccessfully for quite some time ab...it would be great to hear the full song....anyone having it, plz mail it to me at rohan.mahajan@gmail.com

the present...

My present state of mind can at best be described as restless....not that i am involved in a plethora of activities which i envisaged myself to be doing but its just mental pressure which is causing this restlessness.
going out with friends, music, plenty of sleep i have already tried out most of the things to find some piece of mind, some solace without much success....maybe these are the repurcussions of not having a well defned hobby.
my plans of starting a film/music review blog beside other1s also seem to be falling in the bin due to the lack of effort from my side....its so easy to think about the output but the toil that is needed should not have been ignored at the outset.
anyways it would be a new dawm tommorrow, i might rise to the occasion, i might fail again. i might be conquer the world, or may be i'll be beaten to the dust but atleat i would have tried.....if at all i do so i.e.
"Every Adversity Breeds an Opportunity" and i hope to convert this haar into a jeet....

2 set of dialougues which i would like to tellya all about:

• "haar ke jeetne wale ko BAAZIGAR kehte hain"....by SRK from baazigar

• "arre madam aisa haar dikhaaonga ki aapke gale se lagkar haar nahi jeet lage"....by dev anand frm jewl thief.

now at the end of this entry, keeping in sync with the previous post's promise of dedicating a song to the current post....here's the song from 'Iqbal'
"kuch aisa karke dikha
khud khus ho jaaye khuda
aashayen khile dil ke
umeedein mile dil ki
ab mushkil nahi kuch bhi nahi kuch bhi"

ZINDAGI ZINDADILI KA NAAM HAI.....

Seldom does one find real life examples which justify the aptly placed title above, seldom do TV channels shift their schedules to incorporate stories as unbelieveable as this one, seldom do emotions erupt in form of prayers cutting across boundaries of caste,creed,religion for some1 we dint even know till a few hours ago.

Prince of Kurukshetra,Haryana is the protagonist of this simply amazing real life script which ran for 50hours straight, without any cuts and retakes. The so very significant 50hours for the whole world(BBC,CNN were all there) though we cannot say the same for the child as well coz he seemed so oblivious of the happenings outside but then what else can you expect from the child who quite ironically turned 6 today.
This guy fell into a borewell which was about 16square inches wide and 60feet deep while playing. And only after almost 2days of struggle the indian army along with support from the local police/fire brigade experts were able to rescue the child.
No signs of major physical injury have been observed but his condition is being monitored.

how could he manage all this ? what was going through his mind ? would the ordeal have lastng impact on the life or mental condition of the child? if put in a simiar condition, do you think an older person say 12yrs+ old would have been able to face the stark reality of being in the situation the way the child did ? questions galore but amongst all the commotion its the child who has taught us how to come out(both metaphorically and literally) of the most difficult situations of life....He truly symbolises triumph achieved through deep embedded patience for me.

And yea not to miss firefighters from Mumbai were called upon to overlook the whole crisis at hand and to put their expertise to use which they must have gathered from the Bomb Blasts that have been shaking the city out of the i-am-like-shanghai dreams.
I dont want to comment on how to tackle the ever-growing fear of not coming back to home after work but just one question to dear mr leader :
Why couldnt CCTV cameras be installed at the ever vulnerable stations....?? lack of funds may be ?? But then 15 Honda Civics for the honourable MPs cost much more dude...get a life man....n plz let us savour what we have.

I have decided to end each of my post from here on with the lyrics of a song which i relate with the writing above.
So here goes the song for all us from Prince:

jeena kya jeevan se haar ke-2

kaali ghaneri raat mein, chaandni khil jaayegi
tujhe andheron mein kahi roshni mil jaayegi
rehta nahi saari umar, saathi yeh gardish ka safar
deti hain manzil ka pata, kaaton bhari mushkil dagar

how ironic....!!

I ASKED FOR STRENGTH
GOD GAVE ME DIFFICULTIES TO MAKE ME STRONG

I ASKED FOR WISDOM
GOD GAVE ME PROBLEMS TO SOLVE

I ASKED FOR COURAGE
GOD GAVE ME DANGERS TO OVERCOME

I ASKED FOR PROSPERITY
GOD GAVE ME BRAIN/BRAWN TO WORK

I ASKED FOR LOVE
GOD GAVE ME TROUBLED PEOPLE TO HELP

I ASKED FOR FAVOURS
GOD GAVE ME OPPORTUNITIES TO GRAB

I RECEIVED NOTHING I WANTED
I GOT EVERYTHING I NEEDED

my take on d reservation debate...

PROS:
(1) lets not take a short term perspective into consideration, after 200-300yrs d whole scenario would certainly improve.
(2) OBCs dont fare as bad as the SC/STs hence we should further investigate their performance taking into consideration various parameters like their social, economic background b4 generalising.
(3) breeds equality coz it nullifies the wrong done in the past
(4) even though the global status of our best universities wud cum down still sum of the not-so-gud colleges may recover their lost glory coz the pvt firms would lessen the importance of a 'college brand'. maybe then we would eradicate d situation of any1 getting stuck up in a better college wid a branch of not his liking.
(5) for those who think our economy would suffer, well it might happen for say a decade or so but then with education spread all over d country, wid more equality, wid even our peasants' sons/daughters educated; economy is bound to regain(assuming it gets effected) the lost numbers....isnt it?

CONS:
(1) brain-drain but then v ppl have an option due to none of our efforts but majorly due to our parents and their background, y shudnt they also get a benefit....??(here i m nt ignoring the toil our parents go through or went through during their struggling tyms)
(2) status of institutes all over the country would come down on a global scale.
(3) breeds friction b/w different grps already i have heard bout the 'meena grp' n all. but isnt it the problem of the implementation n not of legislation.
(4) studies have shown that 'corruption' plays a more prominent part amongst d ppl who get thru reservation. but then again thts an altogether seperate problem tht the executive has to deal wid.
(5) doubts over the whole policy of 'reservation' coz it has failed in raising standards(though i m not sure of this, do u have any figures to back me up ??) during the past 50yrs, hence maybe its time for more innovative measures. but i think the problem was with lesser initiatives from the govt to get rid of reservation like by providng free and compulsory education for kids, by further subsidising the education and need-based schols..and more such measures i m not aware about.

MY SUGGESTION:
(1) a gradual increase for sum tym so tht the institutes under limelight can cope with the lack of infra n then after say sum decades decreasing d reservation at a rate determined thru surveys.
(2) free and compulsory education till class 8th or 10th maybe so that we can witness the day ven their r no reservations, but i dont think it'll happen b4 we pass onto the next
level.
(3) also MBCs are the true inheritors of mandal and should get the max benefits.
(4) as mentioned by DOOM reservation shud b applicable to those whose parents hav not been subject to it and that too only once. we dont want a person whose father is an IAS thru reservation, n he gets into IIT thru reservation, then gets after a 2yr stint at a govt firm which he got thru reservation and finally IIM mein also he gets thru the 'R' word.....

during the 'big-fight'(a show on NDTV) itself tht person said ki our ancestors fought for reservations under the british raj so y not now....??

i know of ppl in our own college where 1 category person's father is an IAS officer n he changes his cell every 6months, but then i know another person whose father works at a petrol station n who hadnt worked on a computer b4 coming to college. so theres a lot of inequality within a certain section of ppl also, hence clear demarcations need to be specified for seperation OBCs, MBCs, dalits and furhter divide them into grps so that the our energies can be diverted
towards those who need them most. this especially is called for when they form the 80-85% of the whole population.

also if anybody feels tht coz the so called 'creamy layer' inspite of arrangements debarring them from the reservation take most of the seats then i think tht has got nuthing to do with the law, its got to do with the implementation. legislation n executive are 2 entirely seperate entities.

d last week...

well tym flies by n i m still standing at the same cross-road. what to do n what not to do is something i just cannot decide. sometime i feel ki the faster time flies the more restless n hence undecisive one becomes.

A lot of stuff has happend in the last week so here goes n overview for u all :

• Papa got operated for cataract in his second eye at ganga ram hospital( yess..wahana nirulas bhi hai ie inside the hospital) but thts not a highlight. Operations like that of cataract r no more a big serious issue wid d medical advances in the last 2 decades or so but the emotions attached have maintained status quo as far as my family is concerned. Both my maternal n paternal grandparents turned up along wid my chachaji n one of my father's closest frends for a 1/2hr operation. And not to miss tht most of them had to go disappointed for being able to meet papa coz only 1 person cud go in at a tym n tht too at some interval.
  You all are in for a big surprise when i m going to tell u ki even this is not the highlight i m talking bout, yeh sab toh indian families mein hota hi rehta hai. What actually happened was that when i was waiting outside the check-up room i saw a child aged around 10 with both his eyes heavily bandaged. He had a major operation carried out on both his eyes d previous day. The kid did not want to leave his mother for even a second. His father was sitting besides me n was looking for some phone numbers in his diary...it actually seemed like their financial condition was not tht gr8 n he was desperately searching for some monetary help( this mite not be possible but my bollywood adulterated mind forces me into it)... dunno what happened next but in an instant tears were flowing thru my eyes like anything, the pain the child had to suffer, the number crunching analysis his father had to carry on, made me cry my heart out. i hav always considered myself an emotional person...yess i actually cried during 'rang de basanti' when madhavan dies...if it had to do with the emotional turmoil tht i was going thru tht time or the 'bollywood' effect is still unknown to me. so it was the first time i cried for someone besides myself or my family. i m proud ki atleast i have a heart which can, if not anything else, atleast understand other's pain. also for the first time did i realise the actual stature of d 'medical profession'. and finally i found the justification for the climax of 'munna bhai MBBS'.
  
• my mid-semester exams also started n finished last week. this was my worst performance but ab toh 'aadat si ho gayi hai'. i m sure ki more profound depths await me...seriously speaking i need to really pull up my socks as far as academics is concerned.
• went to ludhiana n amritsar this weekend with massi n her family. visited golden temple n wagah border for the first time. i think all of u must visit both these places atleast once. golden temple to try n get closer to god besides experiencing all the stuff associated wid the place and wagah border for that adrenaline punch. teh finally main bas enna kehna chahnda haan ki 'punjaabian di sachi wich hi gal wakhri hai'.
  

A sweet romantic note to end this post :
" tu hi meri shab hai, subah hai, tu hi din hai mera...
tu hi mera rab hai, jahan hai, tu hi meri duniya...
tu waqt mere liye, main hoon tera lamha...
kaise rahega bhala hoke tu mujhse juda ? "

moksha'06 25-28th FEB

today it was didi's b'day. may all sisters and brothers in the world be as lucky as me...

also moksha'06 ended. and engifest'06 has begun, we'll be going on 3rd nite to DCE for attending the fash p.
moksha dis time was a truly enriching experience. i organised 2 events, the golden oak and the eng vocals(solo). Both the events went fine, but with some last moment glitches like non-presence of judges and no snacks/conveyance for judges. But thanks 2 all my friends and co-organisers who helped me out in all situations.
Also this was the first time i organised an event, and frankly speaking its an experience one would not like to repeat... its so damn tiring and u miss all d other events bcoz of it.
i came 3rd in mr n ms intellect and 2nd in mad-ads competition...n now i seem to have come over my stage-fear !!!touchwood!!! also i regret not to be present in the guess d mp3 finals after being selected due to my event.
chalo no panga thers always a next time...

i will never forget moksha'06 due to a lot happenings or rather mishappenings that took place during, n before the fest.

lesson of the day...

always keep a check on your words...
Never be over-confident of urself, and never take anything for granted.
Never utter words which make you sound like an over-confident fool, coz life will throw the same thing/event right across your face the next moment.
always be defensive in life coz u never know what is awaiting you at the next turn...
learn this lesson now, or learn it the harder way. its upto u.

lyrics to die for.......

"mahia ve aaj mainu aiwe kyun hai lagda,
aashiq je sacha hove roop honda rab da..."

this song would go down as 1 of my best...everybody check out the song 'janeman' from aryan-the unbreakable.

kuch meetha ho jaaye !!!

Yesterday was a landmark day in the Indian Economy. the BSE stock exchange ended at a mark above 10000 for the first tym in history of Indian Finance.......yippi!!!!!
the economy boom, the souring of the stock market are all due to the hype(which is absolutely justified) created around the brand 'india' in the several circuits in india and abroad. the BPO,KPO, the culture embedded in the people here, the sharpness of our mind is all a reason for this immense rise in such a small amount of time.
we are now the 4th market in asia to touch the 10000 mark and surely we have miles to go...not b4 sleep coz i know we will never sleep.

also i came to know that this is the 2nd time in history of BSE that the number of digits have changed. during the harshad mehta episode BSE first kissed a 4 digit number......and now its a 5 digit number.
harshad mehta for those who dont know was a trader who single handedly with his networking skills, his cunning nature played volley with the stock exchange. it was bcoz of him tht the then chief of vijaya bank committed suicide after he came to know of his blunders. he was actually 1 of the many fooled by mehta. this guys is behind the bars now, though the way he manipulated with the indian markets is still a well-known case study.

also b/w all the hoopla we hear the voice very well known. we hear the voice which commands respect. we hear the one n only rakesh jhujhunwala....oops do u know who he is??
hes the single largest investor in BSE stock exchange. " i invest not in the firm/company but in their idea" he says in walk the talk with srinivasan or the well known beard guy of NDTV. haan toh i was saying ki jhunjhunwala has suggested the market investors to excercise "caution" coz BSE has been expecting a 'correction' for quite sum tym now.......

Cheers for now....

i am a SUPERMAN.....am i?

Your results:
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Superman 60% Spider-Man 60% The Flash 60% Hulk 55% Robin 47% Catwoman 40% Green Lantern 40% Supergirl 35% Iron Man 30% Wonder Woman 25% Batman 20%

You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

a 'really nice way' to explain !!

You're in a shoe shop, second in the queue for the till. Behind the shop assistant on the till is a pair of shoes which you have seen and which you must have.
The female shopper in front of you has seen them also and is eyeing them with desire.
Both of you have forgotten your purses.
It would be totally rude to push in front of the first woman if you had no money to pay for the shoes.
The shop assistant remains at the till waiting.
Your friend is trying on another pair of shoes at the back of the shop and sees your dilemma.
She prepares to throw her purse to you.
If she does so, you can catch the purse, then walk round the other shopper and buy the shoes.
At a pinch she could throw the purse ahead of the other shopper and, *whilst it is in flight* you could nip around the other shopper, catch the purse and buy the shoes.
Always remembering that until the purse had *actually been thrown* it would be plain wrong to be forward of the other shopper.
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Congratulations - You have just learned the offside rule!

laut ke buddhu ghar ko aaye..........

so i m back frm a week long vacation at andamans and kolkata. its been an experience of a lifetym and i m nt exaggeratin 1 bit.some ppl with whom i interacted during this 1 week include the ppl who went wid us, our cook selvum, our guide vikramsheel, our driver sandeep, the manager of the guest house muttiah. everybody was fun to be with, and i enjoyed a great deal. i dont remember the last tym i spent 1 full week wihtout caring for studies or anything. the point is tht during this whole 1 week i dint feel lyk a student but lyk a traveller in itself.
my first flight was also fun, more so coz a pair of beautiful gals were sitting infront of me.

places we visited at kolkata:
botanic garden
victoria memorial
kali ghat temple
birla mandir
nico park
gariahat

in andamans we visited:
samudrika museum
a saw mill
viper island
fisher's museum
cellular jail
ross island
north bay island where we did snorkelling
science centre
corbyn beach
havelock island
anthropological museum
a rubber plantation
wandoor beach for the sunset
sagarika for sum shopping
mount harriet which is the 2nd highest peak of andamans. on the way we saw the scenery which is present on the 20rs note.
a gurudwara where we sat for a nice langar.

i can state wid full confidence tht after this trip:

1. i m more a more honest and truthful person.
2. i m a less jealous person which is a very odd trait for a scorpian.
3. the picture of the girl i want to spend my lyf wid is also sumwht clear now.
4. the trip infused sum confidence in me too.
5. n last but not the least, i m a bigger fan of himesh reshammiya now.

u all mite wonder wht all the above points hav to do wid the trip. i dont feel lyk going into the details. several small-2 events hav resulted in the above 'improved' traits of mine.

well back to college, and tensions hav already gripped me. inno is cuming up and a lot of catching up work is to be dun. i still havent made my winter training project report.
ohh n alsoon 24th i attended a fuction to mark the foundation day of SAIL. ehsaan qureshi n naveen prabhakar of GILC fame, shibani kashyap, shaan blessed the evening with their presence.

will write more l8r hoping tht i can assemble sum more happenings in writing tht i'll cherish for the whole of my life.

andaman !!!

so today mummy, papa n me along with 2 of papa's frends along wid their families leave for andaman. the rough itinerary is as follows:
16th 17:00 :: board a train for kolkatta
17th 10:00:: arrival at kolkatta
18th 05:30:: board a flight for port blair
in b/w we'll travel to whtevr places r covered in the package which surely includes a visit to havloc island.
m not very sure of the exact departure but we'll be back to delhi by 23rd evening if everything goes by plan.

this wud be my first tym in a plane and a beach too. chalo more bout this l8r ven i return.

the last week was sumwht hectic due to sum inno work but i had to work coz i m leaving them at sucha crucial tym. this is the first tym i m doing sumthing worthwhile for my college, hope i do full justice to d job at my hands.
chao 4 now.

happy new year !!

i dont know if its apt to do so on a blog or not but i still want to wish all the readers a very happy n prosperous new year.

its been quite sumtime since i last posted on the blog but i am not the only culprit. my net connetcion, my busy schedule( ohh kitna achcha lagta hai na sunne mein) n my travelling so much recently have all played a part in the lag. i once wrote such a nice, long post but save karna hi bhool gaya.
infact at times i felt that this blog has become a liabilty of sorts.......

anyways, its all changed now with he dawn of 2006.
with a new firefox extension named 'performancing' writing blogs seems much easiern its fun. n i suggest all you guys to check it out asap.

My new year resolutions this time round are:
(1) to start gyming
(2) to re-learn french
(3) trying to be master of one, rather than jack of all.
(4) to pay more attention/respect to people who really matter to me ie to those whom i seriously consider my buddies rather than whiling away my time with acquaintances.
(5) to shed all the over-confidence n get rid of the inferiority complex too ie a balanced character.
(6) last but not the least to post atleast thrice per month on the blog.

my new yr resolutions do exhibit sum change in my mindset coz last yr my new yr resolutions were:
(1) to have a girl friend (which of course did nt happen)
(2) to stop using foul language

chalo tym to leave now, gotta go out.
hope this year brings more fun, more prosperity n more liveliness for all of us.